I Only Care For Me (Mixtape 18)

00:00 1. Gaara 03:33 2. So Numb 07:53 3. I'm Getting Bored 11:09 4. WTH Was I Thinking? 14:43 5. I Want To Kill 19:33 6. Don't Want To Be A Monster 23:59 7. It's Too Late For Me 27:02 8. The Scorpion 32:38 9. You Won 40:04 10. I Accept Being The Monster 44:14 Outro

LYRICS: [Chorus] I only care for myself like Gaara! Like Gaara! Like motherfuckin' Gaara! Gaara!!! I only care for myself like Gaara! Like Gaara! Like motherfuckin' Gaara! Gaara!!! [Verse 1] I am a demon of the Las Vegas sand. Even as a child, no one gave me a helping hand. I have been homeless since I was born. On my forehead is an invisible horn. [Verse 2] Nobody wants to take a chance on me. A lonely bioweapon is all they see. They're all scared that I might hurt them. Man fuck all these goy yum! [Chorus] I only care for myself like Gaara! Like Gaara! Like motherfuckin' Gaara! Gaara!!! I only care for myself like Gaara! Like Gaara! Like motherfuckin' Gaara! Gaara!!! [Verse 3] I'll never find a friend like Naruto. Everyone prefers to see me as a foe. I'll never achieve any goal. I'm just trapped in my misery & woe. [Verse 4] It doesn't matter if I try to be a good person. My life will just continue to worsen. Nothing ever gets better. I'll be in Hell forever. [Chorus] I only care for myself like Gaara! Like Gaara! Like motherfuckin' Gaara! Gaara!!! I only care for myself like Gaara! Like Gaara! Like motherfuckin' Gaara! Gaara!!! [Verse 5] I am cursed. The one to suffer, I am first. I can't wait until my head can finally burst. From a bullet with a blood thirst. [Verse 6] Death is such a blessing I am not allowed. I am Naruto, hated by the Hidden Leaf crowd. I am Gaara, hated by the world. Walking away from society... as satanism continues to be swirled. [Chorus] I only care for myself like Gaara! Like Gaara! Like motherfuckin' Gaara! Gaara!!! I only care for myself like Gaara! Like Gaara! Like motherfuckin' Gaara! Gaara!!!

LYRICS: [Chorus] I'm so numb. I don't care if people see me as a homeless bum. I just spend my days beating my Dick like a drum. I don't care for my life or this world's outcome. [Verse 1] This world is not my responsibility to care for. The bioweapons can have fun with every modern whore. The goy yum don't really know what's in store. But it ain't my problem, Let the goy yum endure a life of war. [Verse 2] I don't care what happens to anyone in this time. Let the goy yum suffer bioweapons that commit crime. I only care for my own well being. I'll just chill on the outskirts, as a burning city is all that I'm seeing. [Chorus] I'm so numb. I don't care if people see me as a homeless bum. I just spend my days beating my Dick like a drum. I don't care for my life or this world's outcome. [Verse 3] Why should I care for anyone. Let them all get blasted by a gun. Let the goy yum women be forced upon under the sun. As the bioweapons laugh while having the most fun. [Verse 4] This world is not my burden to bare. Why the hell should I care? Let all the goy yum die. To this world I've long since said Goodbye. [Chorus] I'm so numb. I don't care if people see me as a homeless bum. I just spend my days beating my Dick like a drum. I don't care for my life or this world's outcome. [Verse 5] I'm not a hero. My fucks to give are zero. I only care for myself. And to get bitches and wealth. [Verse 6] I'm nobody's leader. I don't care to be a satanist defeater. I just want to enjoy what I can while I can. The whole world can burn, as I remain as the last man. [Chorus] I'm so numb. I don't care if people see me as a homeless bum. I just spend my days beating my Dick like a drum. I don't care for my life or this world's outcome.

LYRICS: [Chorus] I'm getting bored! With the girl I once adored! I'm getting bored! It's about time I rip the chord! "I'm getting bored!" "So Bored!" "So motherfuckin' bored". [Verse 1] All these bitches are so boring. They all leave me snoring. I stand in lonely sunshine, while Hoes everywhere are poured. [Verse 2] I'm learning to accept... that all these bitches are inept. I don't want none of them. All these bitches are just goy yum. [Chorus] I'm getting bored! With the girl I once adored! I'm getting bored! It's about time I rip the chord! "I'm getting bored!" "So Bored!" "So motherfuckin' bored". [Verse 3] They talk, and I'm just so uninterested. Listening to them makes me want to be dead. Hearing this bitch ain't even worth getting head. It's about time I walk away, enough said. [Verse 4] I don't care for no girl in this society! None of them are compatible to me! I wish I could find at least one girl worth a shit. But for now... This dating thing, yeah I'm done with it. [Chorus] I'm getting bored! With the girl I once adored! I'm getting bored! It's about time I rip the chord! "I'm getting bored!" "So Bored!" "So motherfuckin' bored". [Verse 5] Every modern whore is such a bore. I just can't take anymore. I think I rather be single. No hoe can make feel anything, Not even a sexual tingle. [Verse 6] I rather be with my hand. All these hoes are so bland. I'll never understand... How any of these bitches are in demand. [Chorus] I'm getting bored! With the girl I once adored! I'm getting bored! It's about time I rip the chord! "I'm getting bored!" "So Bored!" "So motherfuckin' bored".

LYRICS: [Chorus] What the hell was I thinking that I could have happiness?! Light is not allowed for those trapped in darkness! I am only allowed to be given hardship & stress! God damn my life is such a fucking mess! [Verse 1] Suicide is too good for a man like me. I must suffer and am never allowed to be free. The whole world should laugh at my misery with glee. I guess this is how life just has to be. [Verse 2] I can't wait until I'm in the ground. I'm lost, and never able to be found. God doesn't love me, so I'm Hellbound. I am the Pain King... as more suffering is how I'm crowned. [Chorus] What the hell was I thinking that I could have happiness?! Light is not allowed for those trapped in darkness! I am only allowed to be given hardship & stress! God damn my life is such a fucking mess! [Verse 3] Fuck this life but I'm not allowed another one. I should blast my brain with a handgun. But I'm too scared to kill myself! This level of depression is so bad for my health! [Verse 4] Can someone just kill me because I'm too afraid to! I can't stop the Devil nor the Chew! Satanic Insanity just has to continue to brew! I'm sorry, but since it was fuck me... then it's fuck all of you! [Chorus] What the hell was I thinking that I could have happiness?! Light is not allowed for those trapped in darkness! I am only allowed to be given hardship & stress! God damn my life is such a fucking mess! [Verse 5] Who the hell do I think I am to have joy? I'm such a delusional lover boy! A bullet to my head would increase my low I Q! That bullet should say Fuck You! [Verse 6] I can't wait until I'm in the dirt! This life has only made me feel hurt! A woman I can't court! So I guess kissing death is my last resort. [Chorus] What the hell was I thinking that I could have happiness?! Light is not allowed for those trapped in darkness! I am only allowed to be given hardship & stress! God damn my life is such a fucking mess!

LYRICS: [Instrumental Solo] [Chorus] I want to kill! Taking life is such a thrill! I don't care to have any chill! Killing others is the ultimate black pill! [Verse 1] I live to cause others death! I'm addicted to murder like it's meth! I will kill the whole world... Until there is nobody left! [Verse 2] I have a blood lust! I want everyone to become dust! All your civilizations will decay to rust! In myself is the only one I trust! [Chorus] I want to kill! Taking life is such a thrill! I don't care to have any chill! Killing others is the ultimate black pill! [Verse 3] Being a bioweapon that is murderous... is my only purpose! Without it... I am truly worthless! [Verse 4] I need to kill so just die! I don't care if any of you cry! I don't need a reason why! Just kiss your bitch ass life goodbye! [Chorus] I want to kill! Taking life is such a thrill! I don't care to have any chill! Killing others is the ultimate black pill! [Verse 5] It's not the chew or the Devil that made me. It's this world that drove me crazy. It's you goy yum that caused my insanity. So now I vow to kill all of humanity! [Verse 6] Until I am the last one remaining. Your blood is what will be raining. A planet of corpses.... will be my Mona Lisa painting. [Chorus] I want to kill! Taking life is such a thrill! I don't care to have any chill! Killing others is the ultimate black pill! [Bridge] I live soley for myself. I love only myself. As long as I have humans to kill... then my life will have purpose! [Chorus] I want to kill! Taking life is such a thrill! I don't care to have any chill! Killing others is the ultimate black pill! [Verse 7] Please... Kill me. Kill me... Before I can kill others. [Verse 8] I don't want to actually hurt anyone... But I can't control my hand when it's holding a gun. Someone please stop me... Or else I'll kill all of humanity! [Verse 9] I need a Naruto! Someone to rescue my soul! I need a Rock Lee! To defeat me! [Verse 10] I'm becoming a monster! My demon within is beginning to conjure! This whole world I will conquer! Until I'm alone... in an empty planet to wander. [Chorus] I want to kill! Taking life is such a thrill! I don't care to have any chill! Killing others is the ultimate black pill!

LYRICS: [Chorus] I don't want to be a monster! But it's not up to me! I don't want to be a monster! But I can't stop myself when I'm in agony! [Verse 1] I'm changing like a werewolf in the moonlight. Goy yum are looking at me with fright. I don't even want to know what they see in their sight. But it's best if I stay in the shadows... away from the light. [Bridge] I'm turning into a monster! A monster! I'm morphing into something I can't control! Someone kill me and save my soul! [Chorus] I don't want to be a monster! But it's not up to me! I don't want to be a monster! But I can't stop myself when I'm in agony! [Verse 2] Please stay away. My sanity is beginning to decay. Once it's gone... I don't know what I'll do. Please... I don't want to hurt you. [Verse 3] I'm a monster that needs to be put down! Get the pitch forks and torches from town! And hunt me down before I hurt someone innocent! Kill me now... and spray my blood on the pavement. [Chorus] I don't want to be a monster! But it's not up to me! I don't want to be a monster! But I can't stop myself when I'm in agony! [Verse 4] I can feel the rage coursing through my veins. I want death like a zombie desires brains. Stop me before I kill all of you! Hurry before I lose my cool! [Verse 5] I'm sorry I was born a mistake. I'm someone God didn't mean to make. Please drown me in the lake. Or stab my heart... with a wooden stake. [Chorus] I don't want to be a monster! But it's not up to me! I don't want to be a monster! But I can't stop myself when I'm in agony! [Bridge] I'm turning into a monster! A monster! I'm morphing into something I can't control! Someone kill me and save my soul! [Chorus] I don't want to be a monster! But it's not up to me! I don't want to be a monster! But I can't stop myself when I'm in agony!

LYRICS: [Chorus] It's too late for me! I'm a bioweapon of society! I'm being controlled by satanic insanity! I have no choice but to cause misery & live in agony! [Verse 1] I'm in so much pain. I can't ever escape this depressive rain. My emotions within I can't contain. I'll keep living like this until I'm actually insane! [Verse 2] Call the cops and tell them to shoot me in the head! Hurry up, I'm hanging on to sanity by a single thread! This world won't be safe until I'm finally dead! Tell those officers to blast me with hot led! [Chorus] It's too late for me! I'm a bioweapon of society! I'm being controlled by satanic insanity! I have no choice but to cause misery, & live in agony! [Verse 3] There's no saving me. From this madness I'll never be free. This is just how life has to be. Kill me and throw my body in the sea! [Verse 4] It was too late even when I was born. I came out the womb with a red horn. I'm a demon who was never meant to be here. Who's only purpose is to cause societal fear! [Chorus] It's too late for me! I'm a bioweapon of society! I'm being controlled by satanic insanity! I have no choice but to cause misery, & live in agony! [Bridge] It's too late for me... [Chorus] It's too late for me! I'm a bioweapon of society! I'm being controlled by satanic insanity! I have no choice but to cause misery, & live in agony!

LYRICS: [Chorus] The Scorpion stung me! I have venom flowing in my veins that nobody can see. From this pain, I'll never be free. Meanwhile she laughs at my suffering with glee. [Verse 1] I loved the wrong woman. Someone truly inhuman. Who cares nothing for me. Who finds my suffering funny. [Verse 2] I went to jail because I loved her. My mind back then was in such a blur. But she just made fun of me. Me being locked up made her so happy. [Chorus] The Scorpion stung me! I have venom flowing in my veins that nobody can see. From this pain, I'll never be free. Meanwhile she laughs at my suffering with glee. [Verse 3] The worst crime I ever committed... Was loving the wrong woman. I thought I was smart... So how did I end up choosing the worst person? She laughed at me for years.... Bad mouthing about me to our peers. I had to walk away... Into the darkness where I can miserably decay. [Verse 4] I don't think I deserve all this pain that has happened to me. But that doesn't change it from being my reality. Sadly, life is not how you want it to be. I'm condemned to an unloved life of pure misery. I don't know what kind of man I was in my past life... But in this life... I would've been a good husband to a good wife. But I'm not allowed that... Instead I've only been shown bad people. Everyone I've ever known... has been revealed to be evil. [Chorus] The Scorpion stung me! I have venom flowing in my veins that nobody can see. From this pain, I'll never be free. Meanwhile she laughs at my suffering with glee. [Verse 5] What did I really do to deserve the pain you gave me? I loved you, but hate is all you can see. I would've given you love that is unconditional. But you just find my love so hysterical. [Verse 6] I now know that the problem is not me. But it's you... The one who wants me to suffer so badly. I am a good person... but something is wrong with your wiring. Your desire for my suffering... Is so tiring. [Verse 7] I may never find success or love... From my situation I may never rise above... But I'll be as happy as I can be. One day... From your venom... I'll finally be free. [Verse 8] Hopefully. [Chorus] The Scorpion stung me! I have venom flowing in my veins that nobody can see. From this pain, I'll never be free. Meanwhile she laughs at my suffering with glee. [Instrumental Solo]

LYRICS: [Chorus] You won! Nobody will ever love me! Are you happy?! From loneliness I'll never be free! You won! Nobody will ever care for me! Does that bring you glee? Happiness for me you'll never see! [Verse 1] Everyone in my past was right. My life is a societal blight. I wish me the Reaper would smite. I should just kill myself tonight! [Verse 2] Everyone who doubted me was correct. I'm just a dumb loser with no intellect. I'll never rise out of my abyss. I'm forever trapped in the darkness. [Chorus] You won! Nobody will ever love me! Are you happy?! From loneliness I'll never be free! You won! Nobody will ever care for me! Does that bring you glee? Happiness for me you'll never see! [Verse 3] I'll never have a relationship. On the climb to love I always slip. Go ahead, my tears you can sip. My life I'll never be able to flip. [Verse 4] I'm just stuck! Never able to get love or fuck! I'm just stuck! Forced to suffer in a painful muck! [Chorus] You won! Nobody will ever love me! Are you happy?! From loneliness I'll never be free! You won! Nobody will ever care for me! Does that bring you glee? Happiness for me you'll never see! [Verse 5] So many hate me, and were right for doing so. The destination of happiness is a place I'll never get to go. I'm not allowed to enjoy my life. I'll forever be alone, with no children or wife. [Verse 6] So go ahead and laugh at me! I'll never be allowed to be happy! I'll never prove any of you wrong! Just leave me alone to listen to this song. [Chorus] You won! Nobody will ever love me! Are you happy?! From loneliness I'll never be free! You won! Nobody will ever care for me! Does that bring you glee? Happiness for me you'll never see! [Bridge] You won. I lost. You won. I forever lose. [Verse 7] Does it make you happy to see me in misery? Well go ahead and laugh, because I'll never be free. I'm forced to suffer for all of eternity. My pain tolerance is infinity. [Verse 8] You won, I lost! You won, I'm lost! I'll never find my way out of this pit! But who cares, none of you give a shit! [Chorus] You won! Nobody will ever love me! Are you happy?! From loneliness I'll never be free! You won! Nobody will ever care for me! Does that bring you glee? Happiness for me you'll never see!