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WRITTEN BY Tom MacDonald BEAT PRODUCED BY Tom MacDonald DIRECTED BY Nova Rockafeller SHOT BY Korey Burns & Jenna MacDonald EDITED BY Nova Rockafeller MIXED & MASTERED by Evan Morgan http://www.evanmorganproductions.com

"I Don't Drink" I screwed up, I just wanna say I'm sorry It's all my fault, you should probably ignore me Oh my God, should've given you a warning All my friends are sick and tired of this story I don't drink 'cause when I'm drunk I'm annoying Call your phone when it's 3 in the mornin' Start a fight, parked a whip in your garden Prolly think I am mentally retarded Please don't call me crazy 'cause I'm not Last night I had one too many shots Blacked out, got arrested by the cops Woke up on the neighbour's front lawn Everytime that I'm hangover I convince myself I'm dying Where the hell'd my pants go? And why is my girlfriend crying? I say that I remember what I did, but I am lying There's a tattoo on my buttcheek, it's a beer can and he's smilling I'm pretty sure that last night went down in history We made it out alive and that's a victory Black eyes, minor injuries We lost a fight together, that's a win to me I don't drink 'cause when I'm drunk I'm retarded Ask around, I'm the life of the party Hold my beer, 'cause I'm only getting started Who cares about tomorrow and the misery? I'm a mess and I know you don't deserve it You're the best and I'm a pretty stupid person Nonetheless you try to help me 'cause I'm hurtin' I confess, sometimes I feel like I'm not worth it I don't drink, 'cause when I drunk I'm a problem I don't care who I hurt, I feel awesome Holy crap! It's either jail or a coffin Soon enough, I'mma be at rock bottom Please, help! Tell me, how'd I end up here? Last night, I had one too many beers Flashbacks, but I can't remember clear Why I texted all my exes and we haven't spoke in years Everytime that I'm hangover, last night doesn't feel so funny I threw up on my front step and I wasted all of my money I got naked in the night club right in front of all my buddies Then I went home with some girl I thought was hot, but she is ugly I'm pretty sure that last night went down in history We made it out alive and that's a victory Black eyes, minor injuries We lost a fight together, that's a win to me I don't drink 'cause when I'm drunk I'm retarded Ask around, I'm the life of the party Hold my beer, 'cause I'm only getting started Who cares about tomorrow and the misery? Call my phone. K, be quiet, can you hear it? I don't hear it Damn, oh no! My sexy photos can we clear it? We need to clear it I'm pretty sure that last night went down in history We made it out alive and that's a victory Black eyes, minor injuries We lost a fight together, that's a win to me I don't drink 'cause when I'm drunk I'm retarded Ask around, I'm the life of the party Hold my beer, 'cause I'm only getting started Who cares about tomorrow and the misery?

"Sober" [Tom MacDonald:] What up y'all? My name's Tom Little while back was an alcoholic Had a mental breakdown like a year ago Came close to puttin' me in a coffin Damn, after the hooker I loved After I did all the drugs After I finally got fired for showin' up late to the job I left tired and drunk After the Oxys I put up my nose with my boss on the oil rigs when I was young After my ex cut her wrists and the cops thought I stab her and beat me then put me in cuffs After I totaled my car tryna run from the cops with a kilo of coke in the trunk After I drank 'til I rotted my teeth out my head, got infections in all of my gums After I couldn't get hard 'cause the vodka and porno sedated me 'til I was numb After I couldn't escape from the basement I rented and went to go live with my mom After I cheated on people I needed and lied tryna hide from the guy that I was Then I got sober, the madness was over, now I am proud of the man I've become, uh [Tom MacDonald & Nova Rockafeller:] I'm finally someone that I know again I started climbin' out the hole I'm in Fightin' demons that I know I'll win It's time for me to mend these broken wings Life has been hard I know it gets better This is a war that I'll fight forever Whoa-ayy-oh-ayy-oh Whoa-ayy-oh-ayy-oh I have my scars I'll always remember When I lost it all and never surrender Whoa-ayy-oh-ayy-oh Whoa-ayy-oh-ayy-oh [MadChild:] What up y'all? My name's MadChild I've been off the Xanies for a while now I was wakin' up feelin' suicidal But I think I'm finally startin' to smile now Man, I lived a hell of a life I've been to hell and back twice Lost 10 million dollars, three different addictions Don't tell me 'bout payin' the price From pent houses with top models Hangin' with strippers with pop bottles To anxious and hidin' alone in my room from the world, I was pissin' in pop bottles From chart top and bein' a role model, to flop records and lost follows When I cop product got a months worth When I left the spot cops followed If you saw a photo it was only face 'cause I was 85 pounds over weight Mental breakdown tryna catch a plane Wasn't MadChild I was only Shane My puppy Lola was my only gang Had to put my baby in a fuckin' grave I walked away from every brick I laid So I could build a new wall to keep me safe [Tom MacDonald & Nova Rockafeller:] I'm finally someone that I know again I started climbin' out the hole I'm in Fightin' demons that I know I'll win It's time for me to mend these broken wings Life has been hard I know it gets better This is a war that I'll fight forever Whoa-ayy-oh-ayy-oh Whoa-ayy-oh-ayy-oh I have my scars I'll always remember When I lost it all and never surrender Whoa-ayy-oh-ayy-oh Whoa-ayy-oh-ayy-oh [Tom MacDonald:] When you fall down and the world's closin' in You can get up again, up again [Tom MacDonald & Nova Rockafeller:] Life has been hard I know it gets better This is a war that I'll fight forever Whoa-ayy-oh-ayy-oh Whoa-ayy-oh-ayy-oh I have my scars I'll always remember When I lost it all and never surrender Whoa-ayy-oh-ayy-oh Whoa-ayy-oh-ayy-oh

"Withdrawals" The doctor said to talk to him If I wanted to get off my meds But I never called his office in Poured the bottle in the garbage can I'm stuck in this apartment and I'm anxious like the cops are here I tried to call, like, all my friends None of them are answering Is this the moment where I can't control it? Got no appetite, I guess the party's over I can't sleep at night, and I keep rolling over 'Cause my skin is itchy and the paranoia Got me worried, sick, and it is so annoying I been throwing up, it looked like motor oil But I chose to quit, and now I can't avoid it The right things to do are the hardest choices Is this the moment when I need a donor? Liver failing from the liquor pouring All the room is spinning, it ain't vodka, soda What is almost killing me is being sober Talk about pitfalls Surrounded by brick walls This is what kids call Withdrawals Deleted every number from my phone, I'm staying home Really wish that I was drunk with all my friends I'm gonna beat it or I won't and overdose Really wish that I was high with all my friends I never cared for therapists My arrogance embarrassing It isn't fair to tear with this Addiction place my parents in I'm scared repair will never fix The voluntary negligence The wear and tear my errors did They almost had to bury me Is this the moment where I screw up and relapse? Waste all my money on rehab Can't take a pill from the doctor to relax Lash out in anger whenever I react Feel like a weak man, I don't wanna be that Living every day to get a buzz on the weekend I'm in the deep end, fighting with demons Tryna stay clean, I just really need a reason My bones are shaking and my hands and feet I see my rib cage, but I can't eat I still wake up panicking, so I can't sleep I just sit in the bathtub and try to breathe Talk about pitfalls Surrounded by brick walls This is what kids call Withdrawals Deleted every number from my phone, I'm staying home Really wish that I was drunk with all my friends I'm gonna beat it or I won't and overdose Really wish that I was high with all my friends I've never felt this bad before I don't know if I'll make it Don't have the strength to get off the floor right now But I'm hoping and praying My whole life I wanted more This might be the end But now I've had too much fun, it's over now I loved what I hated Deleted every number from my phone, I'm staying home Really wish that I was drunk with all my friends I'm gonna beat it or I won't and overdose Really wish that I was high with all my friends Deleted every number from my phone, I'm staying home Really wish that I was drunk with all my friends I'm gonna beat it or I won't and overdose Really wish that I was high with all my friends