3 years ago

#nickandseancast #nickseancast #mentalhell

07:00 Being an “Abject Failure”
07:30 Content this show will encompass
08:20 Who am I to say this or that
08:30 Trifecta of Adolescent Trauma reference (Ep. 01)
09:20 “Simple Jack” = GAF Global Assessment Functioning Test 47/100 will get you disability
09:50 Talk about today: What is a Loser?
10:05 Why call somebody a loser?
10:38 Co-morbidity = low education alongside being a LOSER
11:00 Co-morbidity definition = two or more co-occuring disorders
11:20 Example: Major Depression & PTSD (comorbidity)
11:38 Example: Low income is a comorbidity to being a loser (not a symptom of..)
Being a loser was me lacking resilience and not knowing that I lacked resilience.
16:30 The man The myth The Legend Dana Ansell - DAKINI Engineering THE LAST MASTER BUILDER
19:00 Saying the word no all the time: What happens when their boundaries completely collapse?
19:40 Imprinting boundaries - parents on kids
*20:00 "How in the hell did I become so compliant and submissive to being teased bullied neglected etc when i knew the concept of no at two years old? Where did I learn to have no boundaries?
22:30 Nice Guy Syndrome - People who lack boundaries
24:00 Two left hands and two left feet working for Dana Ansell
25:00 20s Aspirations
26:00 Earliest 20s was film making, comedian headliner, and public speaker
28:00 6 years in Ashville North Carolina learning comedy
30:00 Funny but not likeable: How can you possibly go anywhere as a comic?
33:00 Giving myself to self love to deal with the storm in mind and body
*33:30 I didn’t have the resilience, including having boundaries, to give self love. Aspirations require self love AS WELL AS strong imagination.
*36:00 “I had very strong imagination with shame self loathing doubt and no resilience which created that mental hell” (((short: How do you create mental hell?)))
*38:00 Wendy’s interview story. (((call it My Wendy’s Interview)))
*40:00 Offered me the job on the spot (add this too)
****43:00 He was trying hard to recruit me but in my head was not this is good this is awesome I’m getting hooked up with a job — he’s going to find out I’m truly a loser and this is going to be a painful experience “I just feel so bad for the guy I’m trying to prevent him a loss” at BrooksBrothers
44:00 Running away from woman hitting on me in 2015
46:00 Happy working without a skill is not a loser
*46:30 Point A would be like being a production assistant
48:00 Point A to Point B - somebody’s gotta go through the sludge of trials and tribulation with resilience to get through all of that
48:45 Imposter Syndrome with celebrities including Joe Rogan, Johnny Depp, etc.
49:00 “I think I suck but I am going to push through it anyways”
52:00 Stretching Sphere of influence
53:00 Switching roles and Imposter Syndrome
*55:40 How many people that work jobs that are not in the arts thrive with low self esteem, shame, and/or self doubt?
56:00 Imposter Syndrome starting to make sense
1:00:00 Barnie Fife - skinny cop comedically dealing with hostile situations — no one is thinking about teaching him to be tough or “figure it out”
1:02:00 Rather than tease this guy, show him some things
1:02:54 What I needed was guidance on how to not be this soft
1:03:00 Did they completely lack faith in me?
1:03:30 I quit comedy because I didn’t know how to handle it
1:04:00 Happy at sucking at everthing would have felt great
1:05:00 There is no form of content that taught me how to deal with what I went through
1:06:00 Big LGBTQ+ character-push on TV
1:07:00 When I saw myself in those shows it was me being “made fun of” as opposed to seeing the deep painful struggle and how much they hate waking up feeling that way about themselves.
1:08:00 Sean Deilgat is blown away at this point.
Good work, Nicky.