August 8, 2021

(Rabbi Kurt Schneider giving Aaronic Blessing, J immediately complains that 'when TV is in he 'runs' in other/opposite direction, he doesn't care what's on, he can't even pray so that's how that goes' M tells him to go back to his room and stop thinking people want him around being miserable (she does 'because family/supposed to', lying), J stays anyway (like a stalker/sociopath, but that's ok because family/we're in the same house therefore "safe" meaning 1 we won't get murdered unlike if a stranger were doing the stalking, 2 more importantly he's safe from facing any consequences for doing this)
(J &M into it about TV volume, M calls me to say 'Up' is on [missed first time i ever saw it 'cos song from 'Carmen' in first scene was enough to get J arguing through the entire rest of the movie, so wary now]) I have not gotten dressed yet, my "plan" was to get dressed and wait for D to minimize getting caught being dressed...
(D in shower so probably going somewhere, today I am scheduled to practice driving, will have to time things just right to go anywhere, if I get out with D I will be tasked with convincing him to buy the things we need, if I "miss the bus", M will accuse me of "liking D better just because unlike her I grew up with both parents to choose from" and point out how I don't have anywhere to go but I could go live on the street at any time since I "want to leave", as well as all the risk of getting kidnapped and sex trafficked, which could and WOULD happen even if I "had my $#!+ together")