orkambi log 2020.04.26.0422

i've gotten all of my treatments and meds done for today. i'm on my very last leg with insulin. my plan right now is to only take 5 units of basaglar with meals regarless of how big or carb counting, and 8 units basaglar morning and night. it seems to be working ok. if this doesn't pan out, i'm done with insulin, and i need to have a chat with my endo doctor. i also just don't feel right in my head. it's 4 in the morning. i don't feel like i can function. i think this is directly related to the neuological disorder called visual snow syndrome. which is also said to cause problems with derealization. the feeling that there's a filter between myself and reality. it feels solipsistic, which is a very bad feeling. i have a paper around here saying when my psych appointment is, it's roughly in three months. i think i also have numbers to docters i might be able to see sooner, but i don't really know. it just feels like i'm stuck in my head if kind of a bad way. i'm not sure that's even an accurate way to describe it.