orkambi log 2020.04.18.0658

so i didn't make a log yesterday. i've been feeling very anxious. i'm having difficulty trying to focus, it's difficult for me to do anything, even when i remember to do it. i'm only remembering to take orkambi once a day, i do most of my treatments. i go without eating because i forget to get up to eat, and when i remember i don't always get around to doing it. i didn't sleep at all last night. i don't know if what i feel is depression. it feels more like i'm waiting around to die. i already live like i'm retired, i have nothing left to do, and it's not like i've done anything in the first place. i don't know. i'm going to lie down. i'll try to sleep now, at 7 in the morning. i don't know what else to do.