trikafta log 2020.01.08.0235

recorders was a pleasant affair today. it was good to see everyone show up, and we were all a little rusty. in the evening i've done an albuteral, pulmazyme, dekas plus and blue trikafta. on a different note, i thought this was worth sort of a follow up, i've been using minecraft to explore different architectural ideas, primarily based on features from a style called oneiric brutalism. minecraft just happens to be the best medium to examine these features. a few days ago, i live streamed during a semi regular late night anxiety attack, and i showed a part of a structure i recognized from a dream i've had, but built entire on accident. i mention this because earlier today i've built sort of an antithesis, that is, more oneiric structure, but from a very positive experience, and i've spend most of my evening trying to process this. it is a very strange experience, its impossible to describe with any degree of accuracy, to relive a dream, or to find some parallels or proxy elements, especially so many years later and with such vivid detail. it's close to 3 in the morning and i was ready to go too bed around midnight, but i've been so occupied as of late with very specific memories, ideas, impressions, and the need to express these ideas in a tangible, comprehensive way. i suspect that in the long run, these obsessions of mine are not doing me any favors. it is certainly a highly isolating venture, which does not bode well with my highly extroverted personality type.