trikafta log 2019.12.29.0345

i got a new battery for my glucose kit, allowing me to properly treat sugar highs. this evening i took a dekas plus, albuterol, salmeterol, pulmaxzyme, saline inhalation, and blue trikafta pill. there is a freudia idea called 'death drive' being the idea that creatures spend their time looking for things to distract them from the reality of their own mortality. i wondered if there is an inverse to this idea, that there are old people who sit around waiting for death. it turns out it has been medically documented that a person can give up on life and die of appathy. i'm highly extroverted by nature, which means that i like to be around people, but it also means whenever i'm alone for too long, it feels like i'm just waiting around to die of old age. this appears to be the root cause as to why i stay up so late every evening. gene therapy has extended my life significantly, by a few decades. i don't really know what to do about that.