"Boyfriends I've Never Had" (Original Song) | Jordan Elyse

It's been so long! Good to be back :) This is an original song called "Boyfriends I've Never Had" that I wrote on my ukulele. I hope you like it! I feel like I'm getting better at songwriting.

Written, recorded, performed, produced, and edited by Jordan Elyse.

Lyrics:
Everybody likes a good sad song
Everybody likes a real good cry
I guess it's just in our nature
And I never really understood why
I've been having a really hard time
Falling asleep at night
It feels like my head's been twisted
Into something I can't recognize

I think I must be losing my mind, cause

I'm crying over boyfriends that I've never even ha-a-ad
Don't know how I even got this sad
Over something that I've never felt
And someone that I never left
But I'm crying in my be-e-ed
Trying to distract myself
From the chaos inside my head
By pretending to break up
With a boy that I've never met

What an interesting coping mechanism
It's really just a little bit strange
How so many people love to
Take on other people's pain
I guess I just like to ignore
All the problems in my own brain
I'd rather cry about a stranger's exes
Than think about how I can never change

People work in mysterious ways
And none of us can figure it out
And I'm trying to think things over
But there's nothing worth thinking about
I'm trying to find meaning in sadness
Watching the ceiling fan spinning around
Absorbed in everything and nothing
Unable to stay focused on now

I think I must be losing my mind, cause

I'm crying over boyfriends that I've never even ha-a-ad
Don't know how I even got this sad
Over something that I've never felt
And someone that I never left
But I'm crying in my be-e-ed
Trying to distract myself
From the chaos inside my head
By pretending to break up
With a boy that I've never met

I think I'm going crazy
I can't stay focused lately
I can't stay true to myself

Think I'm dissociating
Caught up in my daydreaming
It can't be good for my health

Am I just empathetic?
Or am I losing it?
Cause honestly I can't tell

Is this just simple rhetoric?
I'm disappointed in it
I know this feeling too well

I think I've finally lost my mind, cause

I'm crying over boyfriends that I've never even ha-a-ad
Don't know how I even got this sad
Over something that I've never felt
And someone that I never left
But I'm crying in my be-e-ed
Trying to distract myself
From the chaos inside my head
By pretending to break up
With a boy that I've never met

I hope I don't have any typos in this video...

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#originalsong #ukulele #jordanelyse #songwriting #acoustic #original #song #jordan #elyse #acousticsong #ukulelesong

Originally uploaded to YouTube on Jul 20, 2021.