Living Contradiction

I've studied druidism, to Buddhism, from Judaism, to humanism, from Zionism, to satanism, from paganism, to neoplatinism, and creationism, philosophies of nativism, ideologies of statism, algorithmic data systems, to beta rythms, I possess mega wisdom, was displayed a greater vision, not human I can see it in my behaviorisms. I've looked into wiccan, all religion, alchemical fission, ancient mathematicians, been under self inquisition, you think you understand until the plot it rethickens, surrounded by faraday prisons, in communion with docile minions, giving power to diabolic dominions. I don't care if I'm garnered in the finest of linens, if i have everything I want and I'm constantly winning, I will always suffer constrictions, from my poor decisions, but i can always persevere and take back my jurisdiction, though I am guilty on all convictions, and some of my words may hold contradiction, I would never steer you to fiction, Ipromise that is not my mission, I wish to save you from crucifixion, I hope you can read through the encryptions and give the light the recognition, don't fall to recomposition, don't hear it from me just look inside yourself and listen, there's a problem if there's inner collision, don't follow anything that gives you indisposition. I stay driven by contrition, the struggle is my ammunition, display it through composition, paid attention to the greatest of musicians, so i can audition cymatics in my own rendition.
All that resonates is static when I hear mainstream music, I get to the point of asthmatic it's that fucking amusing, what are these musical tactics that people are using, where are their schematics this is algorithmic like Rubik, I know I need practice and I can barely fit my tunic, but they sound like actual spastics and give audible bruises, almost to the point I can actually feel contusions, I can't understand a word that they're using / tricking people to think they're illumined / getting them to fall to genetic transfusion / depriving them of a chance of retribution /

Pulverizing 60 milligram extended release Adderall and 30 milligram Percocets with fentanyl / synthesized benzos and opiettes that are identical / fake ecstacy thats absolutely delectable / but cut with methamphetamine and barely digestible / cocaine made by cartel professionals / its a fucking spectacle / my collections are impeccable / i supply entire festivals / I like altering neurochemicals / it might not be ethical / and pretty regrettable / or turn me completely vegetable / and kill me in the theoretical / but i tend to think that's nonsensical / probably because I'm mentally demented tho / my thirst for drugs is unquenchable / euserpted by the crackens tentacle / please don't fall to the state of being condemnable / save yourself from becoming detestable / you are not an expendable / i promise you're worth more than any collectible / most people are mentally suceptable / and usually arent that skeptical / and end up becoming heretical / but everything is correctable /

The desire / to acquire / more buyers / and runners for hire / demise spreading like its wildfire / how am I letting this transpire / completely dreading my false empire / it's upsetting to hold the title of supplier / it's more destressing than being called a liar / It makes me feel like a bafoon / an actual goof / anxiety through the roof / depression clouds like monsoon / walked outside and saw a burnt up spoon / thought inside that could of been caused by you / how could I provide another persons doom / had to decide on what i was gonna do / so i kicked the game curbside and gave it a big fuck you /