What is confused admiration and why do we have it?

As a byproduct of the Transatlantic slave trade, Europeans conditioned us with their 500 years "Black experiment", where we as Africans were and remain merely subjects.

Part of the Black experiment was to separate us from every fire of Africanness that connected us to each other, our ancestors, our lands and our culture. After centuries of indoctrination, most of which we received whilst believing we were being educated has rendered us collectively inadequate and envious of each other.