Words for CT survivors or questioning influence.

My mind races at times and my soul nudges me to a pen and this is the result.
I am just a man, a dad, who has failed all he loves and attempts to leave them a piece of his hear, soul and truth that he is constantly evolving for himself to one day become more to finally just be.

I claim no truth within my 'record for the future', but I do urge you all to consider my words and do for you.
I am so sorry for my behaviour in the past mother, I will be more as I cannot save myself as that man. Now I know I can as the man I aim to become, when this is so...I will be more able to save others as all I try to achieve is to find my true self by "coming back to me".
I am drawn to a feeling or ? that I cannot place, see, smell, touch nor imagine but I know I am drawn....my whole life. To what end?
If you are there we will find out together, if of evil, we will divide it into nothing. If Love, we can finally be.
And I will be honoured to travel eternity, accompanying thee.
I guess, whatever It may be...we'll SEE.

thank you everyone who supports me, all I require to live and breath is honest words from open minds. The hate, well I do need to relax and kick back so it is welcome also.

Much L

Johnny