People might think I have it all good but in reality I went through the biggest struggle in my life

People might look at me and think I have it all good but in reality I went through the biggest struggle in my life and I never tell people when iam struggling I keep it inside me especially when I used to excerise and do sports for relief from depression and then I hurt myself by pulling my back muscle and didn't realize how bad I hurt it and worked over it that same day the next day I couldn't move my neck and it hurt really bad. I had suicididal thoughts in my brain those first years because I couldn't do what I love anymore, but I never gave up, and I knew that I could overcome this and heal myself. I also had tingling down my hand and I was also going to college tcc at that time. it took a long time trying different things. I'm definitely better than before, but I still have this little pain in my back constantly, but I figured out how to live with it and eat a anti inflammatory diet, and stop smoking. I also used to use a lot of weed because it helped me, but too much of it, I started to become lazy, and smoking is a bad habit. Now I don't use any weed, and if I do, I have a small droplet from a tincture once in a while. one time I went to a chiropractor and on the x-ray my spine was crooked and he put it back in place. I was suffering in silence no one knows about this because I was too prideful and embarrassed to say anything because I didn't want people to know my pain and didn't want other people to be sad for me. Now that I am better, I feel much happier, and I have found a purpose. I love to spread love, and I would love to help people in the future. I found a passion in my life of recording videos, music, nature and and dance. I love having fun and being positive. I can't stand negativity, and I don't want any negativity around me because I went through too much already. I am still bettering myself and trying to be something positive, inspiring, respectful, humble fun funny chill loving each other no matter what race you are or religion or ethnicity. Hopefully, one day, I can look back and say what a wonderful life and world it is where people live together in peaceful love and harmony. ✌️ ☮️ ❤️ 🐦 🌈 🌟
RIP Nipsey Hussle All people with early death.