The New Dawn #28 A thirst, a prayer without words

Question 1
BELOVED OSHO,
AS MEDITATION IS DEEPENING, I FEEL TENSION AND FRUSTRATION AT NOT BEING OKAY WITH MYSELF, MELTING MORE AND MORE. NOW AS YOU PUSH US ON, ANOTHER KIND OF TENSION WILL NOT ALLOW ME TO BE SATISFIED, EXCEPT MOMENTARILY. I HAVE HEARD YOU CALL THIS DIVINE DISCONTENT. I REMEMBER ONCE A FRIEND SAID, ”IF YOU THINK
THIS IS IT, YOU CAN BE SURE IT ISN’T.” THIS PUSHES ME ON TO ENQUIRE MORE DEEPLY. BELOVED, LAUGHTER HELPS TO MOVE BEYOND TENSION, AND WITH DIVINE DISCONTENT I JUST NEED TO REMEMBER TO LAUGH AT MYSELF. DO YOU HAVE A LITTLE SOMETHING TO REMIND ME?

Question 2
BELOVED OSHO,
WHAT IS THE SOURCE OF CONSCIOUSNESS?