(potential) sociopath meets god

I believe I am formally diagnosed with antisocial personality disorder, which means I'm either a psycho or a sociopath, since I do feel emotions and the full range I'm betting on sociopath, also I forgot to mention another extenuating circumstance to why I'm a gooder boi now than before, which is I've suffered a variety of things that previously I would shrug and say "oh that sounds tough" about without understanding its wider implications, so now I can recollect my own trials in similarity to others and don't need quite the same empathy capacity to understand others in hardship

1986 study on christian versus non-religious sociopaths
https://digitalcommons.georgefox.edu/cgi/viewcontent.cgi?article=1408&context=psyd

humble bragging that unlike the other bad boys my faith actually cost me something and I paid willingly
https://rumble.com/v2orlia-gods-harsh-but-fair-disgusting-sins-of-mine-and-my-good-faith-repentance.html