²17. I don't know... yet, I know what's true. Not just for me.. but for you too.

(if this doesn't make sense, watch my video diary playlist numbered in order, and it then will.)
TBA once I finish watching it back so I can remember or know what to put haha 😋😎

remember I'm only ever mad at truly bad people who do it on purpose, to those who do not deserve it, or without care once aware.
.....

well... this one is nearly impossible to describe and is a direct result of feeling "released" ... (in a beautiful way that's me internally, but also..not, because of she and me, internally... honestly, reflexively and intentionally)
... by the only authority over if im "allowed" to do what i truly feel is good, that I have ever freely chosen to give to another where my duty and/or chosen responsibility is to never hurt, of course not on purpose but ideally at all, and basically never embarrass in a significant way.

due to me now knowing that my chosen...
and lovingly willingly accepted with the understanding recognition that I couldn't change it even if I did want to haha 😋❤️....
..
authority will not be hurt or scared or embarrassed in a real way by my real opinions about how I can intact the message sung by her (and the) best ever artist...
who's name I need not mention... and even though they were small back then I would still give him a "high" 5 if I could, for his message that were I to ever even remotely assist I would feel my life a success beyond dreams, never mind if my delusional grandeur tree comes to be what it could potentially be even if I'm Mr normality out my tree....

but the totality of his legendary accolades message and his specific one in this analogy, as well as what I believe this video to be in my 1st ever "really intended focused with confidence" attempt at..?.. lovingly describing reality...??
oh...no that's right..it was my dumb desire and fantasy to..

*heeaal the wooOooorrld* ..
*make it a betterr plaaace* ...
*for you and for me and the ENtire human race!* ...

delusions and ego and fantasy of being special or better?
I wish... you wish...
but...the truth is the truth ...
and it's...dee-lishh! 😎😋❤️

thank you for making me possible 🥲