Back in the Game by Abby London

The thought of winning the lottery excites us all. We could buy our dream home, quit that horrible job we hate, travel the world, really feel like we are living our lives – and finally achieve peace and happiness.

It’s a faraway vision that we strive for, some of us creating vision boards and manifesting. Some of us pray to God.

Maybe we watch one of the plethora of TV shows and see drug dealers, bank robbers, hackers, etc. They fly in personal planes wearing lavish clothing, buying whatever they want. And just maybe we think, why not me? Why couldn’t I have those things? Would I be happier as a criminal instead of grinding away day in and day out with barely any time to rest or enjoy myself?

I wonder if I ever really do enjoy myself sometimes. I find myself stuck in this struggle of what’s next and where it can get me. I see celebrities with their fancy clothes at galas, posing in thousand-dollar custom dresses, making millions off one song. I wouldn’t say I feel jealousy; I feel something to strive for. I wonder if I could make quick, easy money as I did in my checkered past to get where they are. I sympathize with those who get desperate and make income choices that spiral out of control. Eventually, kinda like on TV, they make more than they can spend without raising eyebrows. Maybe they realize the money they’ve made could be hurting people. There’s so much of it but nowhere to spend it. It feels like blood money.

Is there a solution to a life of struggle and desperation and never feeling like we’ve quite made it? Is it gratitude? Enjoying the little things? Making time for friends? We need money, we need wealth, but I think there is a fine line between worshiping money and using the energy of money to do good.

Please enjoy my latest single, "Back in the Game."