100% Beef- I Hate This World And I Hate Myself More (original)

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First track on my upcoming EP, "The Caring Cynic"
500 sub specials are coming i needed to vent im better now dont worry..
Theres generous people. But everyone is motivated by self-interest. Including me.
Now, that alone doesnt make someone selfish
But that opens the door to it and if... someones not careful.. someone can become selfish by accident

No disrespect thats just my opinion

Verse 1:
I'll say my good friends forsaken me
Its selfish of me theyve been busy
their squedules are getting me dizzy
Theyre life is race cars my lifes a tin lizzie

Till then im stuck with the manipulators
Either be lonely or get to their favors
Bad friends hit me up like target practice
Till I dont do what they want dont ass kiss

Im done trying to make yall happy
ask for rides but never holla at me
Call me outta the blue nah call a taxi
I thought we were cool it was all acting

Im too nice i dont need to please them
I'll just be delpeathing my needs then
Maybe i can see friends on the weekend
Theyll probably say theyre busy, the end

Hook:
I dont mean to be cynical
Im hurt now like ive been before
I dont mean to be cynical
life im living is making me miserable
miserable, yeah

verse 2:
My lonelyness now is unforgetable
rapping about this again but cant let it go
marriages and careers take away frienships
While i cant make friends i cant enter shit

brain says im selish and making excuses
Thoughts abusive fuck hanging a noose bitch
Mental health can be a real nuience
This situations lose lose and im losin it

beef prayed to God to just end him
satan was in beefs ears temptin him
If he ends it all maybe he wont go to heaven
his mental healths the battle of armageddon

Not today satan ill never let him win
God give me a lightbulb like Thomas Edison
going nowhere till im bones like skeletor
I hate this world and I hate myself more