100% Beef- Invisible (original)

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Im an attention whore with STD's
I guess it starts toward my ABC's
What I can recall of my memories
Mom was less involved than the TV

How do i write something i don't understand
Was I neglected i cant comprehend
I had food and a roof over my head
How is it abuse if i was fed

But if u think about it emotionally
I barely knew she was home with me
It was rare that she even spoke to me
Back then i wasn't noticing

Was it my fault for being a loner
couldnt communicate or do homework
My autism going undiagnosed
An angel in heaven and a ghost in home

Hook:
Please dont leave me alone i feel invisable
Seeing you talk with other people is difficult
Im obsessed with you but its my fault
Co-dependancy so misery is the result

x2 im invisable, visible

didn't hang with friends till after middle school
making friends was really difficult
My neighbor friends didnt know i existed
i rode their bus still didn't fix this

Mom had money i was livid
Why were we living like pigons
Cottage made a tight living
Mom said she loved the district

We ate with food in our laps
As I noticed the looming trash
Why is our stuff so packed
Sold my hotwheels to counteract

The one friend and our money had disappeared
Why am I on free lunch it isn't clear
Finds our my step dad drained all our cash
And our relationships estranged from all of that

Hook:
Please dont leave me alone i feel invisable
Seeing you talk with other people is difficult
Im obsessed with you but its my fault
Co-dependancy so misery is the result

x2 im invisable, visible

No matter the friends I feel empty
A huge hole left in me
If I don't have direct attention
Our friendship is second guessing

I wanna have more patience
But my soul has been vacant
I have friends everywhere I go
Want my mom there to watch me grow

I'll never get away from the hellish
Demons attacking whats underdeveloped
And all I'm feeling is helpless
Hopeless nothing else is

More important than seeing my mom again
Will I ever make it to heaven
We never got to bond a lot
And All I can do now is leave mom to rot

bridge:
I miss my mom
I wish she wasn't gone

Hook:
Please dont leave me alone i feel invisable
Seeing you talk with other people is difficult
Im obsessed with you but its my fault
Co-dependancy so misery is the result

x2 im invisable, visible

I miss my mom
I wish she wasn't gone