talking about the attitude of being a cadet and soldier or this case airman at the same time

I'm sorry for everything or miss inconvenience and things I have made two channkles ones preaching the other is cadet and its hard to deal with things out side of JROTC and the expriance was fun and amazing but was traumatic and scary and am glad I was not a real one but evean than idk what I am exsept a soldier of Jesus Christ the son of god in the christain faith