Beyond the hero, from atheist paladin to faithful bard

there's not a lot on men's mental health and fully realizing one's individuality after "the hero's journey" from a sympathetic source, but all people hit their peak at some point and go into decline at least physically, mastering the different categories of potentiality that are masculine but not quite heroic at the same time allows one to make up for lost brawn
god seems to be sending me a number of hints that I'm supposed to transform myself from a "super serious" wannabe hero, into a lighthearted bard and I'm gonna have to unlearn 15 years of activism behaviour against the evils of the world in order to manifest a more buoyant personality for others benefit I think
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=H8YJZ7c2SNY