God forgives, why can't you forgive *a question for me

the camcorder is STILL goin
imma be soooo annoyed later having to watch all these videos
i need not worry about losing any opportunity, i can just repeat the process (i mean, i always do)
i guess it is some kinda dementia, i just put my brain somewhere else
a carousel of feelings where i'm hopping from horse to horse
OR i'm sitting on a bench thinkin bout sumin i did that wasn't very good
now it's blinking LOW BATTERY ad infinitum
imma stay up, i never go to bed when i should
speaking of mental illness...bathing
it's all extra thinking n extra feeling
in case you haven't been noticin they don't like it when you're thinkin
they exploit you so that you keep accepting the same shit hand
i think you know what's in yer hand
apparently if yer ring fingers are longer than yer index fingers you are more in touch w/ yer masculine side
don't judge me for my tattoos (early twenties)
it's not righteous judgment cos that's my past we are talkin about
when the light goes out, i know what that means it's just that i choose to ignore it
getting bored now, i should go
i actually didn't do comedy cos of the snow n the state of tn can't deal
i biked clear across town in a hailstorm all for an eighth of weed
now it's REALLY blinking at me NO BATTERY ad infinitum
i'll do a lot for my addictions n habits
i need to do way more for my livelihood or perhaps my "career" ???
i haven't done comedy in about 2mos
i hate social interactions but it's good for me regardless of how i feel about em
i used to have a crush on josh lewis, i gave him a golf ball to show him my admiration
we meet in the middle somewhere (comedy)
the real litmus test is the jq
ronnit knows it's the jews (and she's from israel so...)