still a human in this crapshoot of a world

are you ready vortex
i haven't done this in over a month, we used to do this shit all the time
thank you for yer retroactive prayers
my embarrassment did not come across at all
you just gotta keep going along w/ it regardless
when it's just me watchin me i do just fine
whatever you are SHUT UP
i hate that i care at all how it comes across
perhaps i would hardly be human w/out it
it never occurs to me that i could ever get it right
i'd prefer to just live inside my head
evidence of my guilt complex right here
i hate the spotlight even tho i'm always on stage
is it God or the devil you tell me
it's gotta be narcissistic i mean duh
i used to be very much a covert vulnerable narcissist
i won't be anyone's bitch n nobody will be mine
this idea of love that i have is probably unrealistic
they know every specific detail
i am sickened by this
narcissism is comorbid w/ all mental illness
thank God it's schizophrenic
clinicians are wrong, all they do is throw pills