had judas repented Jesus woulda forgiven him

making mistakes ain't a problem, learning nothing from them is
i learn at least five things every time i fuck sumin up *this happens often
most of the time it's a few days later that i figure it out
ever have sumin happen n years later you realize why
God knows.
if you dunno you ain't supposed to
maybe that reason means nothin
maybe i'm just trying to make myself seem more interesting n i'm only swimming in the kiddie pool
not everything is so serious amy
some things are so dull n i can't get around this
i fuck sumin up so i can have sumin to obsess about
that is why i drank so much n consistently crash my car (you shoulda seen me the first year i started driving)
way better than i used to be but still
good think you know who died on a Cross
saddest story in the Bible was Judas's betrayal
Jesus knew he was gonna do that anyway
don't doubt that your experience is valuable
throwing sumin away all cos it's hard is just pathetic
most of life is so taxing n tedious
you gotta have positive tedium to balance out paying bills n getting groceries n having to wake up in the morning
your own personal ritual is very important
it's called an iphone for a reason