Mask On

Another morning starin' at my phone, pretend I'm busy
Getting likes on social media while my mind's getting dizzy
"How you doing?" they all ask, I say I'm doing fine
Truth is I can barely get myself out of bed to shine
Meetings, coffee dates, I keep up appearances
While inside my head's just filled with incoherence
They see the Instagram posts, think life's going great
But behind these filtered smiles, I'm in a fucked up state

Every single day, wearing this mask
How long can I last?
When they ask if I'm okay
I just laugh, yeah I just laugh

I keep smiling but I'm fucking drowning
I keep smiling but I'm fucking drowning
(Can't breathe, can't breathe)
I keep smiling but I'm fucking drowning

Calendar's full but my soul is empty as hell
Got a promotion last week, should be ringing some bells
But the victory feels hollow, can't feel anything at all
Just going through the motions, waiting for the fall
Therapist says "progress," I nod and agree
But at home alone, anxiety's crushing me
Yeah, I'm "living my best life" according to the gram
But who's gonna understand? Who's gonna understand?

Every single day, wearing this mask
How long can I last?
When they ask if I'm okay
I just laugh, yeah I just laugh

I keep smiling but I'm fucking drowning
I keep smiling but I'm fucking drowning
Can't breathe, can't breathe
I keep smiling but I'm fucking drowning

Tell me how to fix this
There's nothing left to fix
Tell me how to end this
I'm tired of all this shit!

I keep smiling but I'm fucking drowning
I keep smiling but I'm fucking drowning
Can't breathe, can't breathe
I keep smiling but I'm fucking drowning

Maybe tomorrow I'll finally tell them the truth
Or maybe I'll just keep pretending, what's there to lose?
Except everything I've built up, this perfect disguise
Living in this loop of beautiful fucking lies