A DEBATE

I'm writing this on February 6th 2025 449 a.m. CST.

There has been in inevitable transition brewing over the past 6 months with my life in general. Every night I feel same and guilt. i'm tired of sabotaging myself and tired of the recurring cycle. I've tried to break it but have struggled with my path. It has the led me into a downward spiral of absolute hell. I don't like to think of the future because it scares me. I don't see things improving.. I wish I could redo a lot of things but unfortunately I cannot.

The pain I experienced I could not put into words. It's not physical,nor emotional, nor psychological. It's a dull sensation of hopelessness.

This was ultimately bifold for refusing to make a shades before it was too late. Good friends so are rare to come by and I apologize to the ones who loved me that I hurt. I thank you for your patience and generosity.