I never thought me apologising to my son, for letting him down, would be so fitting.

I know many of these faces, and I know their families left behind, I know that if they could say they never meant to hurt them they would. I am trying recover from my own failings, but watching my mates die one after another, when we are all from one town. Tourists come, they come to retire where I live. It's stunning, but there isn't enough being done to support people back into recovery and to give them all the tools they need.

In memory to my friends and to my own mum I lost her to suicide when I was 9.
That's why I can say I know both sides, to be the child and the messed up adult.

My friends deserved better, I hope their kids actually get the support thats going to be essential if their to have a chance of a good life. Suicide, mental health and addiction who knew it kills!!