help help I'm being obsessed... with being productive while incompetent

traveling wilbury's, end of the line
I feel like being a very disabled individual with executive functions excuses me from having a proper job, but at the same time I was kinda hoping video content would add a little to the good I do
I feel like some mix between don quixote and rain man and a knight errant
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KIvME8CCpxA