If Jesus Only Visited Friends In Heaven

I had a dream/vision, that I went to heaven. I lived in an empty mansion of gold, and was all alone. Everyday, everyone gathered to see Jesus, and he picked one person to walk with. Everyday I hoped it was my day to get to walk with him, but I knew that day may never come. Who spent time with him was decided by him, and who he was closest too while they were on earth. Of course, the disciples were always around him, but a different person was picked everyday for a walk with him. I dont want that vision to come true. I want to share heaven with my loved ones, and him to know me well, and not be someone he barely knows. I talk about my past, present, and future goals are to be more like him.