Feeling Unworthy

A relatable moment where an actor grapples with the weight of his role as Jesus, showcasing vulnerability and introspection.

In the first season I did, there was this moment, especially, which I've kind of talked about at times where, and it's still, I think it's still sort of affects me. I actually like telling the story because it's a reminder for me to remember what it's all about and who I'm serving as I endeavored to portray this role. And so we were about midway through the first season and the time came for me as Jesus to start preaching full on sermons. And we started filming. And then as I was going through these words, I suddenly, it's like I kind of felt I was outside of myself, listening to myself preach to a crowd outside the doors of, in our story, Zebedee James and John's father, Zebedee's house. And there was a crowd of people that was growing, a crowd of onlookers, our wonderful background actors that participate in the show and many of them, whom have participated for years. This crowd starts growing outside the house as Jesus begins preaching. And the scene's not specifically about Jesus, it's about other stuff that's happening in the background that becomes the foreground of the story.