musical explanation of the schizo kaleidoscope life *quadruple bookkeeping

u2 is just alright
i wanted to sound terrible
talking about Proverbs 4:26
heavily scrutinized all the people i've met n the ones i never have
everything is in my head, fiona apple understands this
i just explained the plight of sooooo many women...1:07
thank you for living or dying or just get by-ing
empathy is a good distraction
it's either an actual tv or the govt tv that everyone carries around
they can't cry anymore
no alternative to my head hahahaha
you know what's after the guillotine
damnity damn i am so naturally funny thank you Lord for this gift
things that i've done or other people have done
"history" that they believe cos they are mfing sheep
the swamp is actually the whole us of gay
divided state of psychosis damnit
making yourself uncomfortable is better for you in the long run
there is nothing that i do that gives me the relief that i fantasize about
i see yer face every place i've never been but we've been there together
i will never sever this connection unlike all the other (real) ones
at the same time i have more life cos i'm alone
and that is how i view human beings (leeches)
i AM my own leech *yeah (i liked that a lot)
everything is cyclical but that doesn't stop me from being cynical (and yet still hopeful)
i can be a lotta things at the same mfing time
not just dual realities here (seven to thirteen +++)
the only reason why this "disease" is so vilified by our society
$$$ from misunderstanding (and also state control)
so sad how roped in everyone is thru the tv
you watch tv so you don't have to watch yourself suck
that's the life, honey (i had to watch this over n over to understand what the fuck i was singing)
i'd rather slit my wrists than "think" like you
glad that God saved me from alcoholism all so i could do this shit hahahaha
major repoire for doing whatever i could to kill myself n way more
i am really losing my voice now damn
double bookkeeping is an addict thing too, like i have said before it's quadruple bookkeeping over here
fuck society