Protecting My Phone VS My Christianity

It's that time again. Time for a gun show. I discuss what is on my mind while getting ready to go to the show. I end up in a rant off the dome talking about my flaws. I realize that I spend more time getting ready to go somewhere, than I spend in prayer, or studying. I protect and care for certain possessions and neglect others, just like I do with my christian walk. Why would God bless me with more responsibility, if I don't value and nurture all the things he has already given me.