i'm fine w/ mystery...understanding comes w/ time

i trust God to answer these questions
maybe i'm not worthy of the information n i'm supposed to just let it go
so lucky to see what i can see n the rest i leave up to fate
i will understand if i'm supposed to
it hurts too much to be reminded that they were ever ignorant
a lotta what i am is cos of where i've been
i can't explain my belief to a nonbeliever
i can't explain my faith in myself to an underachiever
the world has let me down so i have expanded upon my internal world
all that negative stuff will eventually come back up
deal w/ em when you're feeling em
i've never had a mask to keep up w/
i don't have the ability to cover up what's goin on inside of me
i used to envy narcissists so much
they lie to others cos they lie to themselves on a regular basis
this is why they hate you
you will never realize what's the matter
*speed trials, elliott smith
the darker part of my personality was revealed to me a long ass time ago
i know i'm pretty flawed, man
it's a faith thang...
everything is some kinda story that you tell yourself
i have my own personal relationship w/ God
diy path w/ the Lord, no brainwashing necessary
i owe donald trump my eternal life