Dear Diary, so .SIGH. a friend, and really I consider her a very good friend - and it’s funny because in my life it seems that some of my people that I’ve loved & cherished the most, that I consider my real and deepest friends, are people that I do not see or talk to you a lot or very often but it’s just a bond that I have in my heart - so she. she …I found out, I found out that my friend is gone and there’s a lot of questions and I am curious and that’s not what this is about although I really dislike GRIEF. I feel like I’ve been feeling a lot of it. I guess that brings me to my point. I have been feeling a lot of GRIEF And I don’t like it and of course ever since Anth died, that is something that is much different for me now - but then I see other places, everywhere I’m looking right now, people who are close to me or my children, there is just chaos. so much chaos and there’s been so much revival and hope and victory really lately - but there’s so much chaos right now and so much pain and just so much struggling. I’m struggling, so many friends …And I just think that I guess this reinforcement everywhere IRL & scripture, stories - I am just, it is a season of growth. I started this year saying everybody was gonna have a glowup and I don’t think that I’m wrong but what I forgot maybe it was before the glowup, because the glowing comes from the growing and sometimes it’s not so hard sometimes it’s not so bad and sometimes it is a long confusing chaotic season. I don’t feel like I am alone at all. I feel like this is happening a lot, but I just feel like maybe this is my sign to make sure I keep going because the enemy, the enemy is out to get us all & he is trying so hard. my is heart broken. 10/20/25 #grief #God #journaling #IRL

DEAR DIARY SUNDAY MORNING EDITION, OCTOBER NINTEENTH TWO THOUSAND, TWENTY FIVE #ChristianLife #PRAYERlife #journaling #IRL #fyp

I have no idea what to do or what I’m doing, but I know it can’t hurt Xoxo😘 #deardiary #accountability #HereIam #IRL #ChristianLife #journaling #relatable #PrayerLife #fyp

Daily journaling, dear diary not sure how we want to do it just some quick thoughts. I definitely noticed getting up and being in my own little space for the week… This is the first day that I didn’t go out to my little Plant corner and it’s definitely … I can see that it’s making a difference already in my day, but I let myself sleep in today.. sleep until 4am which, I mean, I always get out of bed around 4/430am but anyway … that’s neither here nor there… |what is the point I wanted to say ? - Stanley💙 was in the kitchen hanging out with me and I didn’t I want to be like: can you give me space bc I’m trying to make content, because I like being intentional with him - so I was thinking, oh! I definitely noticed the difference in today not being up earlier out and having just even a couple of minutes to myself and even if I don’t read the scripture just being out having the Bible open, I’m noticing a difference. I do keep forgetting to pray a lot, but I keep reminding myself. Oh, I need to pray about this part of my day. I feel like it’s helping me be more specific and intentional about what I’m asking for and making you really think like what am I asking for - not vague oh I wanna have a good life. I want blessings like what? How do you want to get these blessings ? Then I was thinking it was really weird bc the last time I had a cigarette craving was the other morning while I was doing scripture reading and I just read a thing recently that said like when you find it very hard to do things you want to do when you know you should do that is your flesh fighting you & that makes so much sense because obviously the enemy weaponizes the flesh all the time .. so anyway this is a talk to text that I hope is not completely ridiculous. Cause this is just we’re trying something new with the journaling. I don’t ever have the time to write. We have all this technology. There’s nothing wrong with using some of it, although I am sorry, I am just I’m not a fan of the ChatGPT stuff like AT ALL. I’m just all right love you and I’ll check in later. Have an amazing day. Jesus loves you the most and HE is amazing. Love you bye

why in the world would I invite this into my life ? I guess maybe this is the first part of actually meaning it when you say HERE I AM ✝️ #accountability #journaling #IRL #ChristianLife #thinkingoutloud

WHAT IS YOUR SUPERPOWER ?! (REAL TALK: thinking out loud) #TRUTH #stoppit #GODthings #modernlife #justsaying #mentalhealth #IRL #fyp

#DAILYSCRIPTURE “Then you are to say to them, ‘It is because your forefathers have abandoned Me,’ declares the Lord, ‘and have followed other gods, and served and worshiped them; but they have abandoned Me and have not kept My Law. You too have done evil, even more than your forefathers; for behold, each one of you is following the stubbornness of his own evil heart, without listening to Me. but, ‘As the Lord lives, who brought up the sons of Israel from the land of the north and from all the lands where He had banished them.’ For I will restore them to their own land which I gave to their fathers. “Behold, I am going to send for many fishermen,” declares the Lord, “and they will fish for them; and afterward I will send for many hunters, and they will hunt them from every mountain and every hill and from the clefts of the rocks. For My eyes are on all their ways; they are not hidden from My face, nor is their wrongdoing concealed from My eyes. I will first repay them double for their wrongdoing and their sin, because they have defiled My land; they have filled My inheritance with the carcasses of their detestable idols and their abominations.”” ‭‭Jeremiah‬ ‭16‬:‭11‬-‭12‬, ‭15‬-‭18‬ ‭NASB2020‬‬ #BIBLEstudy #journaling #lessons #CHRISTIANlife

INTRODUCTION: I started another try at quitting smoking cigarettes over the summer + I am just now coming out of a crash out that was partly all over FB . So .. Heyyy, come hang out with me ! LOL Xoxo😘 OCTOBER 1 2025 #ACCOUNTABILITY CHECK IN + #DEARDIARY #journaling #thisis45 #IRL #InfluencerEra #Update