Sometimes it's really hard to remain positive.

Dealing with the condition and related symptoms.
Dealing with the everyday stress of trying to live with rising costs of everything.
Living with uncertainty about the future and the current mess with digital id laws, proof of age laws and generally erosion of most freedoms.
All things that have a negative effect on cardiovascular health, blood pressure and mental health.
Top that with the impression that doctors don't really care when you attend your appointments and you have a pretty depressing situation.