@Ashleigh 💋💜 ILYIMY💔

Dear Diary, so .SIGH. a friend, and really I consider her a very good friend - and it’s funny because in my life it seems that some of my people that I’ve loved & cherished the most, that I consider my real and deepest friends, are people that I do not see or talk to you a lot or very often but it’s just a bond that I have in my heart - so she. she …I found out, I found out that my friend is gone and there’s a lot of questions and I am curious and that’s not what this is about although I really dislike GRIEF. I feel like I’ve been feeling a lot of it. I guess that brings me to my point. I have been feeling a lot of GRIEF And I don’t like it and of course ever since Anth died, that is something that is much different for me now - but then I see other places, everywhere I’m looking right now, people who are close to me or my children, there is just chaos. so much chaos and there’s been so much revival and hope and victory really lately - but there’s so much chaos right now and so much pain and just so much struggling. I’m struggling, so many friends …And I just think that I guess this reinforcement everywhere IRL & scripture, stories - I am just, it is a season of growth. I started this year saying everybody was gonna have a glowup and I don’t think that I’m wrong but what I forgot maybe it was before the glowup, because the glowing comes from the growing and sometimes it’s not so hard sometimes it’s not so bad and sometimes it is a long confusing chaotic season. I don’t feel like I am alone at all. I feel like this is happening a lot, but I just feel like maybe this is my sign to make sure I keep going because the enemy, the enemy is out to get us all & he is trying so hard. my is heart broken. 10/20/25 #grief #God #journaling #IRL