WTH Was I Thinking

LYRICS:
[Chorus]
What the hell was I thinking that I could have happiness?!

Light is not allowed for those trapped in darkness!

I am only allowed to be given hardship & stress!

God damn my life is such a fucking mess!

[Verse 1]
Suicide is too good for a man like me.

I must suffer and am never allowed to be free.

The whole world should laugh at my misery with glee.

I guess this is how life just has to be.

[Verse 2]
I can't wait until I'm in the ground.

I'm lost, and never able to be found.

God doesn't love me, so I'm Hellbound.

I am the Pain King...

as more suffering is how I'm crowned.

[Chorus]
What the hell was I thinking that I could have happiness?!

Light is not allowed for those trapped in darkness!

I am only allowed to be given hardship & stress!

God damn my life is such a fucking mess!

[Verse 3]
Fuck this life but I'm not allowed another one.

I should blast my brain with a handgun.

But I'm too scared to kill myself!

This level of depression is so bad for my health!

[Verse 4]
Can someone just kill me because I'm too afraid to!

I can't stop the Devil nor the Chew!

Satanic Insanity just has to continue to brew!

I'm sorry, but since it was fuck me...

then it's fuck all of you!

[Chorus]
What the hell was I thinking that I could have happiness?!

Light is not allowed for those trapped in darkness!

I am only allowed to be given hardship & stress!

God damn my life is such a fucking mess!

[Verse 5]
Who the hell do I think I am to have joy?

I'm such a delusional lover boy!

A bullet to my head would increase my low I Q!

That bullet should say Fuck You!

[Verse 6]
I can't wait until I'm in the dirt!

This life has only made me feel hurt!

A woman I can't court!

So I guess kissing death is my last resort.

[Chorus]
What the hell was I thinking that I could have happiness?!

Light is not allowed for those trapped in darkness!

I am only allowed to be given hardship & stress!

God damn my life is such a fucking mess!