the 500th time will be different than the other 499...addiction IS ocd

how much of our language is the opposite of what we mean
compulsions are voices that only lie
that voice will never shut up by giving in to said compulsion
every addiction/obsession comes from compulsion
that voice in our head wants us dead
would you drink a fifth of acv
nervous tick is always telling me shit i don't wanna know
i'm still pretty small (as you know)
rhinotellexomania creating more n more problems
when sumin is causing you grief but you still can't stop doing it it must be some kinda possession
it feels demonic
i can stick my entire finger up my nose for an extended period of time
i was too embarrassed to admit this chronic habit back in 2016
i had to be completely shitfaced in the parking lot of dominos pizza in order to do coke
far more ashamed of this than i am anything i've ever done drunk
*perhaps this is why i got drunk as often as i did