Dear Mike ~ Luke Johnson (Spoken Word)

Dear Mike, here's my life..
Fear and strife with beer and wine..
Gear and white with pints and pints
Tears dripping down pipes as I slice my lines
It's been a life full of pain in this life of mine..
Still trying to escape from that grimy time..
Still trying to erase what's inside my mind..
It's been a fight just trying to survive your crime
Its like you never ever left, you're beside my side
Still stood by the bath with your eyes in mine
It's like I'm lost for these words when I try to describe the things that you did to me when I was likely 5, or 4
It's like I'm caught in a cycle of war at war with my inner child and he's crying for some type of force to assign some kind of course of action cos back then it was sliding doors//
I'm fighting for some type of a life that's more, than life inside the mind of a psychos thoughts
(I)try to walk towards the delight of the Lord but God knows, I feel like I'm done for,
so who are you, mate?
Cos I hardly know ya
I'm scarred by the past it's been dark as a grown up
My hearts been in parts trying to pass this old stuff
(I've) mastered a mask trying to surpass this grossnes
But darkness, I've never got past it, it's all so nasty
So was it really worth it?
Did perversity serve it's purpose
I wonder if you ever think about what you did to that child
To the feelings I had to feel after?
It's really dark bruv.
But I ain't letting it kill me
There's still a child here in my heart that feels free
There's still love here n it's hardly filthy
It's a love that not only loves me,
Mate, it loves you.
I mean that, mate, it's real truth
I'm past all the things you've done, don't wanna kill you
Theres something here deep in my heart I wanna give you,
Mike, I forgive you.