The Darkness (For Anton) - Luke Johnson (Spoken Word)

I can't remember when we first met
Musta been the ramps
No skates though, just a couple of cans
Back then we had it easy
Weren't puffing the crack
Our biggest problem was the booze
And a bag of the hash
You were a good guy anyone could tell
Heart of gold
Spanish lad
Type to reach out to a darker soul
And give him a reason to be alive
Your happy spirit
Brightened up a dark room
You'd never give in
Few years passed you'd always be there
Through the thick and the thin you still cared
I remember when Ray passed and you were broken
(I)wished that there was summin' I could say to give my mate some hope but it was over
Ray was gone, given to heaven
I bet he's waiting there for us with Mckengus, the McTaggarts and all of them fellas, the gates open
And there's not a reason I can think of that you won't get in, because I love you my brother with big hugs
The years following those first years were when drugs turned us into a pack of wolves
Shotting coke from a taxi
Cooking up freebase, onto the crack scene
House raided, I got stabbed
Ended up leaving, but still we spoke in every season
As years went by we drew apart/
I was cross country, you were in the dark
But when I came back we were back to just good old lads, no crack, just a couple of cans and some plans
To make tunes, and make tunes we did
You were playing the guitar, we were spitting the spit
Had some good old times, it was all fun and games
til the crack came again, it was thunder and rain
Followed by darkness,
the next years were hell,
Your mum passed, then John and the tears would well,
and we got that job fundraising, what a disaster, spending all our wages on crack and the lager,
It got darker than dark and then darker
Until eventually we found ourselves in the darkest darkness
I remember when I told Terry I was gonna kill myself, you turned up in a second and revealed yourself, that's when I realised you were my brother for life, because you literally saved my life
Ever since then we been out struggling
I won't speak to you for a year or two but when I do, we're stumbling into the doom but this time this doom is gonna consume us more than any type of pipe could
I'm sorry bruv, my lifes just a right mess, there's nothing else I can say to you, I love ya from the bottom of my heart, from the deepest parts of my heart, I'd die for you, but I understand what you gotta do, it's just what you gotta do, that's the truth, I love you bruv