Still Lost in the Black (For Pat) ~ Luke Johnson

Produced by RRAREBEAR

Lyrics:
This one's for my mate Pat
I remember right way back
When we used to play taskforce and blast tapepacks
Chilling with the lads at my dad's
We had some great chats, laughing all night with Bennett and Matt//
Usually a bag of that weed was all we'd need to deal with all the trauma we'd already seen
And, maybe just a couple of cans
Maybe some e's n, maybe just a couple of wraps
But I knew you had a problem with smack
You were on the subutex so the next thing we're both doing crack
Putting bottles together with blue tac
Tin foil in the top, rubber band round the back
It turned from a one night thing into a two night thing into a do it nightly type o'thing
We were piping white like it was nothing
Brown like it was nothing
But soon it would turn into something, I'm talking bout my mate Pat

Mate I miss you so bad
Every time that we talk I just wanna see you back
Cos we're grown up now, we got families now
But we're still both lost in the black, I'm talking bout my mate Pat..(X2)

Mate, I wish we never touched drugs/
I wish we were both clean but we fucked up
Now my whole life's a mess and I'm mince meat
And after what I've done mate I doubt you'll even miss me
But please listen mate I swear that I tried hard>
I went to all the groups, did the work, I was quite scarred>
But still I had summin within me
I wanted to get clean
It must have been God
Cos I was in deep
I swear I wanted out, I know that you know this
I called you all the time when I was deep in the process
Of going mad, trying to tell everybody
The mess I was in, couldn't convince anybody
But I spoke to you the other day, first time in ages
We spoke for a while but I didn't really say shit
Cos the things going on are too mad
I just hope one day you understand, I'm talking bout my mate Pat

Mate I miss you so bad
Every time that we talk I just wanna see you back
Cos we're grown up now, we got families now
But we're still both lost in the black, I'm talking bout my mate Pat..

I cant leave it like this
gotta say a little more, there's summin deep about this
cos you still got a needle in your vein,
you're dealing with your pain
in the worst ever way,
I know its so hard
cos we both been through similar stuff
and If I had a way out mate, I'd give it you bruv
but there's things you can do for that pain//
you're risking your life every time you put a spoon to that flame//
I know it sounds over the top
but you know it bruv
both of us
have known drugs
to take lives of the ones we love
and I dont want it to happen to you
it's actually true
one day, you could grab on that spoon
for the last time
and inject the last time
and we wouldn't even have a chance to say goodbye
and if that does ever happen
I want you to know
that you're my brother forever, I'll see you in heaven, thats my mate Pat

Mate I miss you so bad
Every time that we talk I just wanna see you back
Cos we're grown up now, we got families now
But we're still both lost in the black, I'm talking bout my mate Pat..

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