I Hope That I See Ya (For Cleo) ~ Luke Johnson

Produced by RRAREBEAR

Lyrics:
This one's for my eldest, lil Cleo
Hope locked in my heart that I will see ya
Never see ya these days it's a real shame
Wish that I could just jump on a train and come and see you again
Cos you're my first and I miss your face
When I see a photo, I can feel a pain
Cos a photo ain't a real life energy
It's just pixels on the screen of a memory
Aint my memory
I need ya, so much
Wish that I could come and see ya and show love
Cos every time I've ever seen ya you've grown up
Can I even ask for permission to phone up?
Can't even hear your voice in this nightmare
I swear I might be a mug but it's unfair
I just wanna know ya, you're my daughter
And I'll always be your dad, despite what they say...
I've been living like you don't exist most days
Its how I deal with the pain of my old ways
Don't feel like you're dad, I'm a ghost mate
Lost deep in the black of my own fate
Trapped in an old cage
Trying to speak my heart now
Trying to write with my soul get my heart down
Trying to tell you why this things so messed up
But you're so young
And everything I've ever done always goes wrong>
So how can I begin to (even( start this?
This whole thing is shrouded in deepness and darkness
It's like I'm destined to lose you mate
Don't wanna choose a fate
That ends up with us losing our way
So I just hope that you understand>
I don't wanna be a fool I wanna be your dad
And if I can't be that then I need an end
And I hope that the end is you'll be my friend
Please Cleo
next chapter, I cant stop
too much (that) I can say from my hearts love
too much (that) I can do just to try n show
that I love you, (I'd) rather do that than just lie low
I got a feeling in my heart, mate,
sending love from the midst of a dark place,
lost deep> in the abyss of a past way
the lost sheep in the pits of a dark snake
ripped up its hard to pray
giving up my heart today
gotta tell you how I feel in a hard way
turn these words into a picture that glows up
paint a painting with a scripture that shows love
gripped by a omen
I swear that I'm trying, mate
if there was something I could do to
make this better then I swear I'd be trying mate>
But this is the best I could ever do
pen to the pad, maybe you can do the same,
try sending your dad, a little letter to the cell that I'm sat
and I promise I'll be sending one back
writing back to you
and if you wanna see me I'll be in the prison waiting,
you know you've got an invitation, I love you

Beat by Rrarebear 'Simple Evenings'