Forever it's Love (For Cleo) ~ Luke Johnson

By now I'm guessing you heard the song that I wrote about your mum, swear down I loved your mother so much that nothing could touch the love that I had for her, my childhood sweetheart, the one that had this certain way about her, made it beat fast, deep scars pain me cos it didn't work out, I wish we'd turned around the story before it turned into something other than you and all of us being happy, not being snappy, every talk had turned aggy, it was burnt, shabby and just broken when we ended it all, both sides attacking, at the same time defending it all, acting like you weren't just a baby that needed us both, I swear if I could go back and fix it then I'd be there the most, more than anyone in your life, I'd be a proper dad, instead I ended up stranger, just another man, broken into pieces, because I needed you in my life, instead I had a coke can and a couple gram, a spoon and a light, its like

You’re the daughter I never had
You ended up with a better dad
Better than anything I could ever do
I wish that I could step into his shoes
And try to be your dad
and make you proud
but the truth is that I haven't a clue

Who you are or who you need
So I’m stepping back
I have to, cos I left you and Han
Now I’m going into prison
For eleven plus
I’m sorry Cleo
Forever and ever its love, trust

So time passed and I tried to be the dad that you needed, I was trying to father T too, but couldn't be it. Drugs were ruling my life like, I was cursed for a life time, I needed to stop it but I just couldn't see it, or maybe I could but just couldn't do it, every day was pure hell, felt like my heart was full up with stray bullets, turned out I was the man that was holding the gun, couldn't stop shooting, trying to control what I done, had to run away, going from place to place, made so many mistakes, my face was a shade of grey, worst dad in the world for a million reasons, if you hate me then I understand, so many times I didn't see ya when I coulda seen ya but your mum and dad were fighting demons, it was like I couldn't ever be enough no matter what I did, I swear I tried, yeah I really did, it just wasn't enough, you're my diamond in the rough, I love you so much

You’re the daughter that I never had
You ended up with a better dad
Better than anything I could ever do
I wish that I could step into his shoes
And try to be your dad
and make you proud
but the truth is that I haven't a clue

Who you are or who you need
So I’m stepping back
I have to, cos I left you and Han
Now I’m going into prison
For eleven plus
I’m sorry Cleo
Forever and ever its love, trust (X2)

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