I Didn’t Deconstruct My Faith — Suffering Forced Me to Take Truth Seriously

This video is not a deconstruction story.

I’ve never believed in a theoretical God — and I’ve never lost my faith because of an argument.
But suffering has a way of stripping everything back and exposing what actually holds you up when life goes silent.

In this video, I reflect on the most painful season of my life — separation, silence, unanswered prayer — and how it forced me to take truth seriously in a way comfort never did.

I talk about:
• Suffering and spiritual silence
• Why experience alone isn’t enough
• Discovering apologetics later than I should have
• Equal weights, Scripture, and truth as a moral obligation
• Why immaturity — not doubt — is the real crisis in the Church

This isn’t an argument.
It’s an explanation of how I became the way I am.

If this helps even one person grow in maturity, it’s worth sharing.

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