Chaos In Roswell - Exit Wounds

Lyrics
You don’t say my name, you say what I was
Like I’m already gone, like I already lost
I feel you pull back every time I breathe
Like loving me costs more than you believe
You look through me when I’m breaking down
Like you’re waiting for a better sound
I keep bleeding just to feel you stay
You keep loving me the quiet way

You hold your breath when I get close
Like I’m the thing you fear the most
I try to heal, you keep score
I don’t know what I’m fighting for

Am I an exit wound you won’t admit?
Something you caused but never fixed
Do you only touch me when I’m numb?
Or leave the second it gets real again?
If I fall apart, do you disappear?
If I need you most, are you even here?
Tell me the truth I already knew
You don’t love me — you survive me too

You say you care but won’t look back
You hate the mess but love the mask
You liked me best when I stayed small
When I didn’t need you at all

I asked for more, you changed the subject
You call it space, I call it nothing
I learned your love has limits now
I hit them every time I’m down

You didn’t leave.
You just stopped staying.
You didn’t hurt me on purpose.
That almost makes it worse.

Am I an exit wound you hide away?
A scar you feel but never say
Would you hold me if I can’t pretend?
Or am I only worth the way I bend?
If I break, will you finally choose?
Or just walk past what you couldn’t use
Say it once so I can move on
I was never what you wanted all along