i accepted that i'd never get whatever i thought they had

as if i could fit in...
why would i wanna do that tho
i suppose back when i didn't know all that i know now...
everyone seemingly enjoying themselves is always looked at suspiciously
i used to be so insecure about it but then i grew up (i guess)
ag eye roll at ag
it don't matter as long as you can make yourself laugh n understand why you're cryin
yeah ad infinitum
we've been trained by every system in place
it's a lotta fun to make that sound
thank God that i can be whatever i want inside my head
fitting in w/ a suiciety...no thank you
if it's popular that means that nobody questioned it
why would i wanna be invited
at this point being rejected n spat upon means i ain't doin nothin wrong
there was actual spit that came out just to let you know
another cool tradition in the Orthodox Church
i have always felt this way about the modern world
the world has been giving em a sour taste as of late, that's why they're complaining so much
now they're being reminded
i'll never not be conflicted about the state of humanity
lucky to be afflicted cos i am on my knees
just knowing that the all-knowing has got me...
i internalize everything so it's not that hard for me to not say what i want
i will lose whatever is left of my mind if i stop making this "art"