Don't Stop Believing - Luke Johnson (Prod. Scotty C Beats)

It all started back in 2010
When I was getting stressed
Trying to stop the bud and the bottle of Becks
Whisky, coke and the rest
I was smoking the sess
Sticking a note up my nose in a mess
I'd look in a mirror n hope for the best
Then I'd shiver and go for a pen
Try to write a verse and then show them again
That I'm worth summin'
More than crack smoking
Heart broken by the street
It was a mad joke n
I swear that I'm telling you now
I tried my hardest but
I couldn't put the pipe down
I couldn't quit the lagers bruv
I'd graduated onto darker stuff
Heart was hardening up
Trying to hold my job down was hard as fuck
Glancing up at the sky
I said a prayer
I was in it so deep
There was pain everywhere
I started looking for a God
Cos I needed one
I'd tried everything but religion
I needed jesus to come
N then it changed
A girl came into the shop
I took her digits cos I was thinking she could be one
We talked for a bit
N started to meet
She said her family hate me
Cos I was 28 and she was 17
But her uncle offered to take me to church
So I went
Hillsong, up on Tottenham court road
About 10
A.m
On a Sunday
The one place
That I could finally find some faith n make friends
I made friends
And I stopped messing about
stressing around
Started seeing this girl and we when to town
Walks in the park and chats up on Skype
We were talking bout God and we were talking bout life, and the Christ
It was nice
It was sweet
But the dark inside me
Didn't want to me get away from that hell it was like we
Were destined to break apart
Trying to make a start
But heading for the finish I was sinning,
Living in a place in my head that ain't anywhere near God
It wasn't that long before we broke up
N then I got coked up
Then it was the crack n the brown
Robbing stuff from out the shop and
I was back on it now
I lost faith, I was getting dragged down
By the beast
I got an eighth, I was getting crack out
On the streets
Not a mate
Just a pipe and a lighter
Staying a fighter
Fighting my life because my life was making me fight
And I swear to you now
If I could take it back I would but I was so lost
Got to a point I'd say there was no God
Dark times in my flat on my own
Hard life trying find my way back to the zone
Where Id sit and Id pray and Id go to church on Sundays
There was peace in my life back then I had hope
And ever since then I've been trying to find my way back
And I ain't gonna quit until I find myself there man

Instrumental by Scotty C Beats 'Dont Stop Believing'